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Maybe. I'm used to stress, but maybe. It has been going on for a while.you could also just be stressed out which would be much better
Maybe. I'm used to stress, but maybe. It has been going on for a while.you could also just be stressed out which would be much better
I do see. Sorry, I'm crying right now. I do fucking see.You see bro, opening up is a good thing. There’s some mofos who give a shit
Let it flow man . It cleanses the soul.I do see. Sorry, I'm crying right now. I do fucking see.
So, this is not an easy thing for me to tell people, and I'm probably going to ramble. My wife knows about this and that's about it. I have suffered from some fairly severe anxiety and depression over the last little while (about 10 years) and I couldn't figure out what was going on. I felt I couldn't catch my breath at times it got so bad. Not sure why I'm sharing this with you guys outside of the fact that we have been basically family for years. I have struggled with this. I have not gone to counseling but I probably should. This shit can feel devastating.
I feel like sharing this with at least someone will help me get through this. This is really hard. My heartrate is above normal most of the time. I'm quite sure my blood pressure is too high most of the time. It hurts in a way that is very hard to describe. You can call it a sinking feeling. Like the world is positioned against me. I write this because I feel it might be mentally beneficial to just tell someone. This shit sucks. I am normally very secretive about my feelings and feel like even telling you guys breaks the man card promise, but someone needs to hear this. Mental issues are a serious thing, and I almost feel like I am on the brink of losing my mind sometimes.
After reading what I typed again it sounds stupid. I guess my reasoning is not only to mentally help me rehabilitate but to also tell other people that may be dealing with shit like this that it is okay to talk about it. You aren't weak. There is just something wrong. I am trying to find what is currently wrong with me. I will find it. I am a very confident and decisive person, so this really throws me for a loop. Pray for me, or do whatever you do when someone you know is in distress.
BTW, I am not suicidal.
no you're not amigo, I bet almost everyone on the planet has had to deal with depression throughout their lives, your not alone or a pussyThank you. I hate hate hate feeling like this. I'm such a fucking pussy.
My sister has suffered from depression for many years. It’s not something to be embarrassed or ashamed of. Seek treatment. Trust me. It won’t make the depression go away, but it’ll really help.So, this is not an easy thing for me to tell people, and I'm probably going to ramble. My wife knows about this and that's about it. I have suffered from some fairly severe anxiety and depression over the last little while (about 10 years) and I couldn't figure out what was going on. I felt I couldn't catch my breath at times it got so bad. Not sure why I'm sharing this with you guys outside of the fact that we have been basically family for years. I have struggled with this. I have not gone to counseling but I probably should. This shit can feel devastating.
I feel like sharing this with at least someone will help me get through this. This is really hard. My heartrate is above normal most of the time. I'm quite sure my blood pressure is too high most of the time. It hurts in a way that is very hard to describe. You can call it a sinking feeling. Like the world is positioned against me. I write this because I feel it might be mentally beneficial to just tell someone. This shit sucks. I am normally very secretive about my feelings and feel like even telling you guys breaks the man card promise, but someone needs to hear this. Mental issues are a serious thing, and I almost feel like I am on the brink of losing my mind sometimes.
After reading what I typed again it sounds stupid. I guess my reasoning is not only to mentally help me rehabilitate but to also tell other people that may be dealing with shit like this that it is okay to talk about it. You aren't weak. There is just something wrong. I am trying to find what is currently wrong with me. I will find it. I am a very confident and decisive person, so this really throws me for a loop. Pray for me, or do whatever you do when someone you know is in distress.
BTW, I am not suicidal.
Meh, I only did what friends are supposed to do, and that's be there when your friend needs you. I appreciate your words, brother. I'm feeling a little better today.Well, you know I'm here for ya, brotha. I've been through some stuff myself. I know what intense anxiety and depression is. At times it can feel like something heavy is on you or that you're being held under water. Anxiety can be a real bitch as well. All of this is extraordinarily common for Americans. I have had about 4-5 major depressive episodes in my life that were near debilitating and lasted up to a year.
Go see a professional, my friend. Find someone that you can talk to that you learn to trust. One thing that I do is practice grounding. A technique that brings you in the here and now. There are a few ways to do it but one way is to sit in the middle of the rooms and slowly let you eyes see the color and shape of every single object. Do this for about 10 minutes each time. Or slowly follow the lines of the room from left to right. Follow the corners of the walls, around the door casing and so forth. It sounds stupid but the point is to slow you brain down and get yourself into the present. Make a gratitude list every day. List the top 10 things you're grateful for and meditate on those things. Say them out loud to yourself. I also like to pray. For me, giving my anxiety and the results of the future into God's hands takes the burden off of me.
Not trying to be preachy but alcohol actually increases anxiety and depression if you try to use it to beat those things back with drink. Over time you will rest less, be more depressed and anxiety will increase.
Either way, none of that impacts my respect for you. You're one of the best dudes ever and I think you're a champ. At one of the lowest points of my life, while my wife was fighting cancer, my anxiety and depression was in full swing. You were there for me. You and you wife gave my wife flowers. That gave her a moment of joy and now she has flowers and plants all over the damn house. You're an asshole for that because now she has a plant budget.
Many of us are assholes because we’ve had to deal with insensitive cocksuckers who can’t appreciate the value and health of another person and it’s made us very bitter and angry. Depression is an illness, and it’s just as fucking real as cancer. Anyone who tries to “argue” otherwise can go eat a bag of dicks and choke on the last one. Personally, I wouldn’t wish depression on my worst enemy. It was fucking hell just watching my sister battle it, and it tore me up inside. I can’t even begin to imagine what it was like on her end, or what it’s like on yours.I want to thank everyone that reached out or replied in this thread. I never would have thought a bunch of assholes could be sensitive to something like this. We are a great group here. Thank you all.
Thanks, man. I think support is going to be important for me through this. Not like I'm dying or anything, so it's not that serious, but sometimes I feel like dying might be easier.And make no mistake; you’re 100 times more of a man for sharing this with us than any man who would dare criticize you for it. We’re all standing with you....even with your being a Tech fan.