I told you it was an addiction and explained my history with the Cowboys in depth; people do counter productive shit all the time, I'm certain there's something in your life you could ponder the same question about yourself but thats none of my business
It is a little like an addiction. I need to get my fix. After a Cowboys win I definitely get a high. After a loss I want nothing to do with football for a few days. I miss the normal training camp fix I'm usually getting right now. I love the shit out of the draft even though I bitch about the coverage.